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| ex marks the spot |
| Tuesday, July 7, 2009 |
OK, I have a question to ask: what the fuck is up with exes e-mailing me months down the road wanting a reconciliation?
This happens periodically. One in particular would e-mail and/or message me on Myspace every five/six months or so and ask if I was still mad, why I wasn't speaking to her, etc. I think I broke her of that; our last exchange ended with a threat to kill newborn animals if I ever heard from her again, so hopefully she's fucked off for good.
This one was more of a surprise. Back in November, she e-mailed me, ok, saying we couldn't see each other anymore because she "just can't do it." I never got any more information out of her than that.
Until recently. This e-mail rolled in, and well... she never was much of an English person:
"Hi here how are you doing? I would like to say sorry for what I have done to you. I would still like you to be friends with me but if you feel like that you can't then I understand. I feel so bad for what I have done to you. I hope that one day you can forgive me and we can be friend and talk once again. I really miss talking to you. This is all my fault and I am very sorry. So will you forgive me and call me sometime?
Well I said it would be just a little note so I will talk to you later."
It seems innocuous enough, and I'm sure you could read any number of things into it, but here's my rough translation:
I didn't have any real, discernible reason for breaking it off, I was really just being an impulsive kid, which is how I got into my situation to begin with. But I didn't expect to still be single eight months down the road, so I'm going back to the well because I figure there's no way you've found anyone either, and well, something is better than nothing, right?
I used to think so. When I was nineteen.
Needless to say, I won't be replying to this. I got a voice mail from her about a month before this e-mail, and I didn't return that either. The truth is that I have been seeing someone since late November, thanks for asking, and I'll be damned if she doesn't show me a bit of respect every now and again (read: all the time). So thanks for playing... with yourself, which is apparently what you're doing nowadays, or you wouldn't be writing to an ex you so unceremoniously blew off via e-mail.
Sorry... I don't have a lot of patience for this kind of thing.
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heith, don't EVER apologize for feeling that way about this particular ex AGAIN! i mean it! she blew it and you are right to ignore her.
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heith, don't EVER apologize for feeling that way about this particular ex AGAIN! i mean it! she blew it and you are right to ignore her.